Monday, January 8, 2018

Life Lessons

I’m writing this letter to discuss something that’s been on my mind lately. It’s hard for me to publish this article because I don’t know what would be the result or the feedback, how don’t know how to start, and what to say. But if you’ve caused me pain or happiness, helped me grow, or caused me to stumble backward, this is all for you. Regardless if it was was positive or negative, all of you impacted me in some way which has helped shape me into the person I am today.

After graduating from college, things went well, I did so many projects, freelance works, attended a lot of events, and I was able to do all the things that I really love. Until one day, things have changed. I got pressured looking for a stable job, yet I didn’t get my dream job. I was afraid to try because I don’t want to be rejected. I felt that I’m not ready yet, and I need to prepare myself. I was determined back then and look for another job just to earn an experience and I’m not sure if I did the right thing. At first, I don’t enjoy what I’m doing. I started questioning myself and my abilities. Why did I end up here? Luckily, I met some friends and they help me to continue what I have started. I enjoyed going to work, even longer hours, I didn’t mind working on off.

Because of that, I lose my social life, I kept my life private as possible. I stopped from attending events, and I rarely update my blog and social media accounts. I lose some followers/readers yet there are still a lot of them who stayed regardless of what happened. Just like my friends, Some turned their back on me, and I got to know who the real ones are. I didn’t care. As long as masaya ako sa ginagawa ko. But still, there’s part of me na parang kulang. Parang hindi ako masaya. I focused myself on working pero parang may mali. I suddenly missed my old lifestyle and my old self. Gusto ko mag blog ulit. Gusto ko mag attend ng events. I tried. But I can’t. I had no choice but to stay. Well, may choice naman ako, but I chose to stay and I don’t know why. Then I met this guy, unexpectedly.  He's been very supportive ever since. He came at the right time, God’s perfect time. And I’m beyond grateful that he came into my life. I think that is God's purpose why he didn't let me leave the job.

The first 9 months of being together were perfect. It was the happiest moments of my life.  May mga tampuhan but we were able to fix it in a good way.  but as they say, change is the only constant in life. there is nothing permanent in this world except change. We've been through a lot, especially these past few months.

Our relationship wasn’t perfect but I thank him for everything. for treating me like a princess, putting me before himself, being my best friend, making me feel loved and for not leaving on my side. He's my support system. I couldn’t be more thankful for all the ways that he taught me. The beauty of life and the wonderfulness of love.

In today’s society, it also seems like most people are constantly looking for happiness, but instead of being happy what they already have, they are constantly looking for more. Of course, it is good to search for happiness and never settle, but sometimes what you have always wanted has always been right in front of you. If you spend most of your life searching for more, you will never be happy

To that person who keeps on trying to ruin our relationship, Sorry but you failed. and to all the people involved, you won't be hearing anything from me. I had enough. You made me realized that I should be careful when it comes to the people I trust.

I believe in the fact that whatever happens in our life is always for a reason, be it good or bad. It will always make us a better individual. you will either have a lesson to learn or a memory to share. So starting for this moment, I won't let anybody to ruin our life, our relationship, and happiness. I don't care if you will turn your back on me. As long as we're happy, and our families, that's all that matters. It's time to remove all the toxic people in my life. I will do the things that will make me happy, I'll accept the change with a smile. I will be brave and smart. I want my life to move forward despite of all hardships and set myself free.

It is normal to not always be 100% confident in your life choices, but the most important, yet difficult life lesson is “you don’t know what you’ve got until it is gone.”

Stop the negativity guys and let's all be happy! We all deserved that.

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